Ask and you shall receive. 9:01:00 PM

Eto ang status ng buhay ko ngayon mula ng pumasok ako sa bagong trabaho, call girl sa gabe (dahil sa shift) assistant sa umaga at dapat event manager by profession but wait there's more.

Maraming salamat kay LEICA dahil sakanya narealize ko to:

Parang kelan nga lang ng pakiramdam ko sa kabilang kumpanya ay gamet na gamet ako (ang dumi dumi ko na shower moment insert here) dahil kung ang dyos nga 10 lang ang utos sila 12 e syang kabaliktaran sa opisinang eto. WALA PANG UTOS. di ko pa nga nakilala kung sino magiging superior ko e naabolish na ang NY team. so eto, inuugat nako sa workstation ko sa pag-aantay.

Parang kelan lang din ng forever ako nagtime in and time out, lagare sa 29th floor to 15th floor aba ngayon sa 9 na oras kung pumasok ang isang oras ay nakalaan sa pagtulog ang 30 mins sa pagkain the rest sa pagkain habang naginternet. tulad ng sabe ng special friend ng opismate ko ngayon na si racqs para lang kame binabayaran para mag-internet sa isang internet shop.

Nakakamiss din pala un may forever kausap sa telepono, kahit lagpas office hours na ngina-ngarap ka paden para sa after sales, repair at kung anek anek na maisipan ng cliente. sarap ng pakiramdam na mahimbing ka ngayon sa tulog at wala ng iisipin kung nagawa mo ba lahat ng asa listahan mo at pano na un kinabukasan.

Dahil baliktad nanaman ang oras ng buhay ko, mahirap pala magpuyat ng umaga. nakakaloka nakakagroggy un tipong tumatawa ka lang para magising, kumain ka ng lugaw para mabusog nagaalmusal sa mang inasal at nagbubulalo dahil may nagcecelebrate ng kaarawan.

So do i love my job now? Yes. So ask and you shall receive.

unknown territory and uncertainty. 5:57:00 AM

I'm writing this blog post with no sleep and fresh from a 10 hour graveyard work shit, so please bear with me as i feel obliged to share this with you, cyberworld.

It's my 6th day at new work and after 5 interviews for this job and i found myself holding unto my chair like i was in a roller coaster ride while my direct superior breaks the news.

Bad news first, We got an email friday night (manila time) announcing that they are closing the New york office. Jawdropping news for me? why except for the fact that I've been employed 5 days ago and i haven't done anything for the company except browse the website, update my facebook and tweet all night, i was like left hanging there. Why? All of our superiors are based in the NY office though the main headquarters is in CA, well the question after that email was who do i report to now? i haven't even met my real boss, as we are directly reporting to the US. So meaning, if the NY office closes were jobless!!! OH NO! after bargaining my resignation with my previous employer and working 2 shifts (night - new company, morning - bw) and proclaiming and thanking god for the new opportunity, with just one email i was jobless.

So i think i was jobless, come monday and still no news, no email, no further announcements to whom will i / we report to. So my two colleagues opted to talk to our marketing director who is based here, he made some calls and finally by 9am the verdict was in, we were asked to go inside the boardroom and wait.

Cut to the boardroom scene, while we were happily waiting for our boss to return and tell us the news whether it is good or bad we were all laughing like there's no tomorrow. Night shift people plus morning shift people equals fun. We were all like why prolong the agony.

So there i was, hanging on to my dear life, wishing and praying that everything will be fine. That i won't be sacked out. Thank god, I wasn't instead we will be reassigned to a new marketing manager, well that was like this morning, i have no idea when i return to work tonight what's up. I just hope everything will be alright.

Lesson learned: WITH JUST ONE EMAIL, YOU CAN BE JOBLESS. after having a fun monday night with my two new officemates, learning to sleep in the sleeping quarters during break, laughing our hearts out during lunchbreak over a bowl of lugaw and arrozcaldo plus trying to fight the sleepiness and chatting like there's no tomorrow in our office communicator just to be busy and were like one seat apart. I love this new territory, it is far from my previous work environment cause everybody's busy in their workstations, people would prefer to chat in ym than do face to face talk, I'm fine with this. So please don't take this away right now.

Still I'm on shaky grounds and i have no idea what will happen in the next few months, but i wish everything will run smooth as planned.

bawing bawi ah. 9:39:00 PM

Random happenings.

- Bingle's Bday party at Gerry's Grill (GLORIETTA 5) take note: glorietta 5!!! hinde greenbelt 5 hahahaaha what's wrong with me? sensya na puyat - basag - antok. So kamusta naman ang walkathon namen ni gerardo mula greenbelt 5 to glorietta 5 sorry na. napaglakad un amo ko at di na daw sya fresh.
- All star cast (ate cathie, lea, dhang, ara and bingle and the boys ) tamang laughtrip. I love it. akala ko ang thema ng gabeng eto ay COUPLES NIGHT haha
- After ng party ni bingle, OFF TO QC for QT hahaha kulang nalang magdrawing ang ate ng heart heart sa tisyu.
- dadaan si gerardo sa grilled tomato dal reunion ng batch nya nun hayskul
- Baang night with gerardo, yown iba na kasama :)

Oo na, matapos kong mag-emote the whole day, i am whole again CHEESY!! hahaha putek, ganun nalang ba un, ayos sa bawi. sulit naman. haaaaay.

Fine, fine time :)

You. 11:23:00 PM

Please make me believe that things will be alright, that things will be different. Is this good enough to be called a relationship? seriously, i don't even feel it. Do i expect too much? or should i stretch my patience further till when? I hope when i wake up there's an answer, there's you exerting effort. YOU TRYING not texting.

Please make me want this as badly you wanted this from the beginning, cause I'm beginning to lose grip from everything. I really want this to work but if i can't see the reason why we must go on, i guess we have to accept the reality that we suck. I can no longer live in make believe and story telling, it's very exhausting to create a perfect partner in your likeness just to satisfy my thirst for what's real and what's not.

I'm not the type who pleads, beg and uses the word Please twice in a blog post. If only you could read my mind, you could have been in a state of shock. So please please, make this thing work.